To my readers I have to explain in some part what is going on. I wont sugar coat what has been happening. I had a mini nervous breakdown due in part to my husbands surgery (he is perfectly all right and healing great). I was then put on some meds that not only didn't help, but made things much worse. I am now going off all meds, am having horrible insomnia, but am getting better. One thing that God has used this crisis is to show me how much I love my husband, how good he is, and how I have been not trusting God in my life. I have been worrying over things that I cannot control and things that are not my responsibility to the effect of hurting my health. So for the past two weeks I have been on a total media blackout including Internet.
My name is Chloris and I am addicted to doom and gloom Internet!
Any prayers from my great readers I would more than appreciate. God has been so faithful through this whole thing, but I still struggle with fear of the insomnia.
Whenever I'm afraid, I will trust in You.
Psalm 56:3
I would still like to continue my blog, but it will have a very different focus.
And thank you too all my readers who have messaged me. Your concern has really touched my heart!
Sometimes we have to fall so that he can lift us up. Glad to see your back.
ReplyDeleteSmall Farm Girl
Hi Chloris
ReplyDeleteI will be praying that you will be able to sleep soundly, it is one of God's most precious gifts.
Just finished reading "This Life is in Your Hands" by Mellisa Coleman, Eliot coleman's daughter. It talks a lot about how difficult her life was and how difficult the 1970's were. I ended up being more hopeful after reading it because I remembered that, as Soloman said, there is nothing new under the sun. Life was pretty good for most Americans between the 70's and now. We could pull out of these difficult times again.
Shirley
I'm not sure what to say. "Congratulations on remembering to turn you worries over to God!", just sounds awkward even though that is the basic sentiment I want to convey. A few months ago I was getting overwhelmed by all the doom and gloom TEOTWAWKI stuff and political stuff and had to go through my bloglist and unfollow a bunch of blogs. I sat back and realized that the only thing in this world I can truly control is myself and the rest must be left up to God's will. You may have already read this book but I thought I would suggest it as it brought me to a place that helped me. It's called "The Will of God", by Leslie Weatherhead. http://www.amazon.com/Will-God-Leslie-Weatherhead/dp/0687074827 It really helped me turn the corner to trust in the Lord.
ReplyDeleteHang in there and God bless you.
ReplyDeleteAmen Chloris! Lovely to see you back and I am praying for you and your family. 8-)
ReplyDeleteGod Bless,
Janet in MA
Glad you are back. You were missed! It takes alot to admit on "paper" your struggles. Thank you for your openness. I have found out, over the years, that there is a reason for everything. Many times "enlightenment" comes from "dark places". Good to hear that your husband is healing from his surgery.
ReplyDeleteThe following is a quote from Micheal J. Fox, "Whatever the situation, just take it for what it is. You don't have to make it worse or better than it is. It just is what it is. Always deal with the honesty, the truth of what something is, and then you've got all kinds of choices."
You have been heavy on my heart recently, now I know why. It sounds like you are on the right path. Take care of yourself, so you can care for your loved ones.
As I have been down that road many times due to trauma beyond belief, you will recover. I always like to remember: That which does not kill us will only make us stronger. I thought God had made me stronger through previous trials, many of them.
ReplyDeleteBut noooooo. I too had to go through yet another, My hubby too had gone through some major health problems. It's not easy trying to take up the slack, be the care giver and watch the one you love so dearly suffer.
God knows our hearts, get real with Him. I did, it's the only way I made it.
My story is at: http://sassy-keepinitrural.blogspot.com/2010/02/time-flies-whether-your-having-fun-or.html
and: http://sassy-keepinitrural.blogspot.com/2010/06/my-heart-is-heavy-my-mind-frustrated.html